幸福

世界很大 渺小的两个人能够遇见这种幸福
有些秘密 只属于相恋的两人之间
有一双手 温暖得像黑暗中的光线
有些感觉 深刻的停留在那时间

My Chinese was never rusty. I don't know Chinese (well) to be frank. But a lot of people think i was Chinese Educated. Due to the reason that i speak fluent mandarin.

I think my mandarin is conversational. and it's not close to good. or am i just portraying perfections?
I studied 2 years of Chinese during Kindergarten and spoke mandarin with my family during my earlier childhood years. Then i stopped Mandarin for 2 years after i went to Primary school and only attended Mandarin classes in Primary 3.I could still rmb the class was held every Friday 1 to 3PM. I dropped Mandarin class in Primary 4.
I couldn't continue because it's just getting more difficult.

I stopped conversing mandarin with my family after i went to primary and started speaking Hokkien.

Then my sister gave birth to nephew no.1. I started to speak my half filled mandarin. In 1998 nephew no. 2 came to the world. Still half filled...

Then i went to colllege and it was during my first year of uni that i started to speak a lot of mandarin to my dear coursemates back in IICP. eventually mandarin speaking continues right till today :)

No doubt i did improve in mandarin because i converse to this friend of mine in mandarin ALL the time. I know how to read more chinese characters (courtesy of HK dramas subtitles) and be surprised that my mandarin improved after i came back from Sydney.

ahha..what an irony? at least i did not deprove my English rite?
A good thing to learn and find out.

I had this thought everytime when ppl i know think i was Chinese Ed whether if i was, what kind of bling i will be today.
I probably will turn out to be some typical chinese ah lians? (ah ling)
and not the bling you know today.

honestly i am very thankful i wasn't Chinese educated. But i have a feeling my dad actually regretted sending me to English school. Why?
Cannot see Chinese in me. Don't understand Chinese "wen hua" he said.
oh well, he didn't spelled it to me but i could just feel it.
Chinese it just too difficult and tedious to learn...wokay?

anyway...i'm trying to learn how to read chinese now. Because i think things can be expressed more in Chinese characters.

*smiles*

randoms..

Chi muis in the queue.....


When i look at this picture i actually stared at it. figuring out which was my hand. i only managed to figure it out the 2nd time when i relook at it. yeah.. i don't recognise myself.


I spotted myself in this snapshot taken by the photographer... ahha..i think i was having fun in my dream and fantasies. i don't quite remember what i was doing. But i do remember they were all eating the wasabi filled mooncake.

I came across a song the other day...not in order. it was random.

Cannot dream, cannot share sweet and tender moments

Cannot feel how we feel, must pretend it's over

Must be brave and we must go on, must not say

What we've known all along

Must be strong and we must let go

Cannot say what our hearts must know

How does one walks away

From all of the memories

What do i tell my heart

How can i not love you