top few things to train

no beating, no teasing, no overthinking.

i believe i can do it..try from now!

Happy New Year 2012!

OOPS..another year is here...didnt accomplish much last yr. guess i need to repeat the same new year resolution!

rantlers rant

last night i saw something funny straight to my eyes..and the strange thing is developing that kinda feeling..that may not be a good sign...i'm trying...trying..

i think the reaction i got was kinda cool. just a smile. no words.. hmm..perhaps too much of a stranger still. need to have better bonding u supposed?

time should tell i'm guessing..

2 more weeks and i should be leaving for a job assignment in India..i should be there for 3 weeks..which can be pretty long.. no gym again for 3 weeks :(

going to be missing the classes much...sobs..and when i come back im gonna be rusty again... sigh.

the world is unfair

no matter how unfair it is i think we still need strike a balance. let's hope this will happen..recently just went to Kampuchea and i feel so sympathetic to the people there....33% of the population is living under poverty line. Can you believe that?

and the driver who chauffled us around is just 28 yrs old. seems tourism is the best industry to be in in Cambodia. he shared with me that he does some programming and planning to earn some money to open a shop. looks like he is trying to save some money from this job and realise his dream. really 大财小用。。

all about me me me

occasionally its good to sit down relax and ponder...

then take some time put on the thinking cap and..

think about ourself..

understand ourself better..

like this..

like how do i view myself..

like i view myself as down-to-earth and people like me because i'm so straight forward. i'm an efficient problem solver because i will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

Cons of being straight forward outweighs the pros i.e creating more enemies.

it also very much depends on people, whether they can accept nothing but the truth. so if we interprete it this way-people who hates me just dont seem to like the truth. they prefer to live in fantasy -- *bluek**

moody

arrgh..just lose what i have penned down earlier. it makes my flame firing even more!

such a letdown

i feel so cheated. we are basically framed. now stucked. stuck for 3.5yrs. the fact that the kickoff is cancelled is such a letdown. it actually demotivates if not all most of us. so what is so special of being in this program? other than working for IA and treasury what else?

i hate being told this and that but at the end of the day no promises. so what is special?

we have been given one word and until the day we die we must rmb which is PERFORM.

now we don't seem to have a choice since we have wet our pants. only thing is to perform and see what happens by end of this year. whether we get what we wanted.

like a few who has mentioned to me earlier...if things dont go well just throw, pack and go. might as well be it if things dont go well than suffer quietly.

i can be patient for another 4 months. time flies anyway..so we are anticipating...

so so bored! time for me to go home..just dont know when..need to see mum and dad..