one of the biggest letdown

i have never spoken about the disappointment i felt from this particular person..on and off when i actually think about it i will wonder how can a person be so selfish. as someone who has helped him before i really feel as though i was being taken advantaged..and show no appreciation towards the things i have done.

he definitely take things for granted...and when he found that there is nothing else he cant benefit from me he stopped talking to me.. partly also because he no longer need a friend like me..and he also found new friends. once close friends now become not so closed friends because he found another closer friend.

why can a person be like that..perhaps his definition of friend and my definition is different.

i never wanted to blog about this because its not necessary however i could no longer take it. a release is needed.. i don't understand and it keeps on playing on my mind that i'm bringing this up

but is there anything i can do? obviously nothing much can be done now....

i told myself on and on of not even treating him as a friend. just treat him as a colleague would make me feel better. because with that expectations are lower..

i should take a good lesson from this episode. this is episode 2012.

what's important are the memories...

the car has been sitting with him since last tuesday... do not know why but i just trusted this person ..tht he will help me fix it. its strange but it just happened..

many things happened in the past 1 week... and i found out a lot of things about him too..

ppl come ppl go..whatever left is in our memories.. this is really true.

the last league was gone and forgotten just like that.. which i did not have any sense of remorse. i'm glad it went well... and now its forever gone....

still thinking of the same person of late...not even close or know this person well. the smile kept playing in y  brain

bring it forward

i brought the date forward... one month earlier. after i have collected all the models and hand it over to him on the 29th Nov. And on the next day i told myself that its time to let go. no point wait until 31st december. one month later or sooner doesnt make a difference. i didnt regret doing those things.. i know i would have regretted if i didn't do.

and i am proud cus i made it..although difficult but i proved a point.. when there is a will there is a way. at one point he says he will get me a christmas gift another point say will treat me a great dinner and another point is a haagen daz's treat.

which is true? i dont know.. in fact whether or not he treats me it doesnt matter anymore. i'm very dissappointed with how they way he is treating me.

he seems touch at that moment but will that last? knowing him as a person he will forgot it real soon. but i made the right thing by using the best tactic to make him remember me.

i know if i continue to do all the small little things i will hate myself even more..i do not want to hate myself further so its the perfect time to let go..

i even told myself not to give in even he ever comes back and asks because someone asked me this question... anyway chances are slim.

time to ignore and dont say much..nothing said is better.

and i cant wait for next week to be over as im so looking forward to my hibernating time for 2 weeks at home. time for a recharge for 2013. hoping for a great year ahead..

planning for the next big thing too.. :)